Broken-Up Music #3

And finally, the revelation, the guilt trip, the blame song. There's actually something very liberating in this song, but you only find it in the background vocals and chords.

Over some time, a long long long time ago, I realised the exact emotion that this song conveyed. That sense of freedom, of cathartic relief. It's that emotion that you get from the first breath you draw after crying until you cannot possibly, physically, cry any more. It feels almost like being born again (never mind the fact you're doing pretty much the same thing when you're born), followed by the relief of breathing, simply breathing, crisp, clear air (anywhere you are, at that moment, the air is crisp, I promise).

It's actually the sense of being very very glad to be alive, regardless how horrible things get, despite whatever makes you cry. It's the realization that it is because of suffering (someone else's and later ours) that we're alive in the first place.

Broken-Up Music #3 - Sarah McLachlan - Plenty

I looked into your eyes
They told me plenty
I already knew
You
never felt a thing
So soon forgotten all that you do
In more than words I
Tried to tell you
The more I tried I failed

I would not let myself believe
That you might stray
And I would stand by you
No matter what they’d say,
I would have thought I’d be with you
Until my dying day
Until my dying day

I used to think my life
Was often empty
A lonely space to fill
You hurt me more than
I ever would have imagined
You made my world stand still

And in that stillness
There was a freedom
I never felt before
I would not let myself believe
That you might stray
And I would stand by you
No matter what they’d say,
I would have thought I’d be with you
Until my dying day
Until my dying day